I shortly after burnt most all of it.

Transvestia

After this "purge", however it was as if I had found myself. I understood I had to accept myself. I had not created myself. I was born with masculine and feminine feelings and none of them were bad feelings. I realized that it was not a handicap to live in a feminine world. On the contrary I had the advantage of being able to look at mankind through two sets of glasses, two sets that complimented each other.

Today I have an extensive feminine wardrobe, and I dress as a woman as often as possible and generally some hours every day. All sorts of feminine clothes are represented, and all forms of foundations are to be found in that wardrobe together with underwear, nighties, shoes and jewelry. As an experimenting girl I find we have to try all the fashions and types that we can afford. How is it to wear? How does it suit me? There are constant questions. Therefore my wardrobe has been continously growing. I have several wigs of real human hair and find it interesting to change color and style now and then. My beauty-box is full of all sorts of cosmetics and for me it is a charming hobby to find out how they are to be used, for the best results. Through the years I have studied the ways and man- nerisms of women in order to develop my own authentic feminine traits and habits and to improve my feminine appearance. But above all it is my wish to look authentic, not to attract attention, and to be able to look and act like the average woman. To be natural is the most im- portant thing of all. The adoption of feminine mannerisms is an art, but also an inevitable consequence of my de- sire to express the feminine side of my life. Walking and posing like a woman, some minutes of daily training in speaking with a modulated feminine voice are studies that influence the persoanlith in a feminine direction. I think we are here meeting an interesting factor in our feminine development. We learn that the more we act and pose in feminine ways the more and easier do we

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